Letter to yourself

 I did something I have never done before , I wrote myself a letter.  A Dear Karen letter.  It felt silly at first but then I really got into it. 

 I am a goal setter ,  a list writer , a post
it note queen, and now a reminder on my phone. If it doesn't get written down, it will get forgotten.  I blame it on mom brain and ADD. So naturally at the beginning of January I love to set new goals for myself. But this year it was different. 2019 was a hard , but good year. It was a year of challenges , of new , of loss.  As I stared at my empty journal page , I began to feel discouraged. I suddenly felt uninspired for new goals, I felt defeated. 

Then I had heard from scrolling on good ole Instragram of writing a letter to your self. It made me think. My word for this year is mindfulness . I want to live more intentional this year, less distracted , more present. Rather than throwing in the towel on myself and not write goals, I decided to give myself some self care. 

 Dear Karen,

You made it, 2019 was a good year , it was a hard year. ..

My pencil began to flow and suddenly I felt a release. I threw in a curse word ( whoops) here and there , but I also found some great bible verses. I wrote all the hard stuff, I listed all the great stuff. I encouraged myself as I turn 40( gulp ) this year. Rather than bullet points of goals ,  I wrote out dreams for this year. I wrote out what didn't work and what does work. It felt really good. Ha the planner in me started to get mad at myself for waiting till mid January to do it.. but then I said , at least I am doing it. It's still January, its still the beginning of 2020. 

After I wrote this , I sat in hero's pose on the ground. Its where you come to the ground, knees together , separating at the feet and sitting on the ground . Or you can sit on top of your feet. This pose is a pose of peace. I began to just breathe. And on each exhale, I let all of the failures of 2019 go. 

I encourage you to do the same. Grab that pencil and Dear Karen yourself. Cheers to 2020!